Prece*torship - Day 9

(backdated entry)

got super-screwed by my prece*tor today. sigh. ok i have to admit, it wasn't the most alert of days either.

highlights of the day were that i had to call a doc in the same building to verify some stuff... and being the first time to call a doc (and we all have nice experiences of "calling docs" in school...) i actually forgot to take a notepad and pen to the phone. and then the doc just rambled on some complex instruction which my brain forgot to capture. no choice - had to call doc again, and i guess she was quite irritated.

then got scolding from preceptor (S) cos of my illegible, "ugly" scribble on the P-form.

S was abit on the warpath today, i suddenly find out that i get scolded for alot of stuff that i was not responsible for - proper stacking of drugs, rehab counter, p-drug counter, etc. then a bit more screwups and more scoldings, and suddenly i thought - just let them scold, it's just an ave for them to flare up, why bother to feel hurt?

why bother to even do well then? when you are going to get scolded all the same?

suddenly my voice became from loud... to soft... to a voice sapped of energy. and pride.

a partial order that she told me over the disp counter was not conveyed to the dispensers inside and that resulted in the loss of 10-20 labels. the people inside had happily packed all the medication, which could have resulted in big sales, but the customer had only wanted one of the six items.

as a result - we had to tear off the labels for the drugs that the customer didn't ask for. all because i didn't say that it was a partial order. ok... lesson learnt.

coup de grace came about 1 hour before dismissal, where i was typing stuff at the front counter and she was counselling a patient about a medication. being engrossed in the keying in of data, i didn't notice that she had finished, and the patient was supposed to pay.

the patient came to me, thinking that this was the counter for paying. since the drug could well be POM, i thought, i better check carefully in case something goes wrong. and by this time i was truly tired. i just asked to check whether the drug was POM.

then S just suddenly flared up and... the details of the conversation would not be posted here. but it really hurt, and i wonder why sometimes it was done. I believe that no one is born stupid or slow, and even if anyone is, it is cruel to pinpoint that disability of his.

I cast a face from that moment, all the way until i reached home, had my dinner, and went to sleep. True, this may be part and parcel of work life. And too bad it is coming from the boss. And maybe the boss happens just to be in a foul mood. And maybe i just happened to screw up at that critical point in time.

And maybe this is a effective, although crude, way to learn. And learn fast. I guess after a good sleep, and vowing never to repeat the same darn mistakes again, thursday and friday proceeded more smoothly. Maybe S also knew that she had overdone it, or maybe there wasn't anything for her to pick on.

And i have already done 2 out of 6 weeks. 4 more to go.