Worrying about next sem: YEP

Yup, it's me at the worrying end of matters again.

YEP. The three letters that i've been preaching over and over since last year... since i came back from phil. It's due to times like this when you really enjoy something, then wish you had it back again.

Yes. so that's why i'm here again this time round. I can't go back now... the costs are much too great. Imagine.. $600 for the leadership course, $800 for the recee.. close to $1000-$1500 for the actual trip = $2.4-$3 k. a small fortune, if you ask me...

Sometimes it's issues like this which really force u to think about what you really want. Why do i want this YEP? Why do i wanna park it under pharm? Even though like, not many people are really lifting a finger to help. The usual reasons surface: not enough time, increasing workload, etc... well i would really write a whole essay here.. but forget it.

Can't really help it. I admit that i went for the phil trip cos partially, i wanted to see the Philippines... as a form of leisure. But then i was pretty able to stay committed. But at a great cost - skipping lessons, tutorials, getting stuff done the day before a test, having late-night meetings up to 8pm etc. Overall result: lousiest CAP of all 4 sems.

So why do i wanna put in so much effort even though i risk sacrificing my grades (expected CAP: 3.0 next sem) and friends, and most importantly of all, nuan? Beats me... maybe i'm an idealist. Maybe i just wanna more people to experience the goodness that i have similarly experienced. I really think YEP is another milestone.. after all i met nuan there, and it gave me a leadership role... which i have not really fulfilled to my expectations. It introduced a whole new world out there, and gave me infinite hope, that the world is big, and that maybe i needed not be cooped up in Singapore doing volunteering or whatever else i wanna do... It is a good experience. I enjoy the bonding with the 18 or so people on a team.. working together, living together, developing chemistry and cliques, laughing like old friends. Guess other than the pharm people, the closest friends now i have are the friends from the trip.

And it is my hope that pharmacy has a YEP trip. We have good and intelligent people, we are kind by nature (i hope, after all, why did you join pharm??). And there's always the bugging concern, "why other faculties and societies have YEP, why don't you all have it??" It's also truly a joy to be working with the leader of the previous YEP trips, jk. i think we'll be counting on his experience. Sorta marks the continuation of the YEP trips.. i hope really, if this hits off.. then somebody will at least continue the journey. I don't wanna say too much else here...

Right now: no plans. But they will come soon. Recceing the ground in around mid-june, hopefully i and jk can bring some good nuggets of info back (and avoid diarrhoea in the process). Like all YEP leaders.. i hope the trip can be even more successful than the one that i experienced, such to provide the participants with an excellent and enjoyable experience, so that eventually one of them will accept the torch and carry on the tradition...