What a Poor Pharmacist Vol. 2

Sunday, September 03, 2006

man mentality

warning: vulgarities.

army sucks, when you are a man. i never tolerated that.

why was i a man? all boils back to the illness. pes E - shattered. not that i could, of course, with my physique before i entered the army, be anything better.

i look at the sergeants and officers, sometimes i wonder, if they had got a better share of the NS learning experience.

leadership qualities. more importantly, the ability to have a voice. to speak out.

as a man. your views are simply not appreciated. just do it - that's the man mentality. or get f**ked by your superiors. i couldn't understand why some things are done this way, nor why some things can be done in a better, more efficient method, but simply was kept to the old methods.

maybe that's why, after that dark period i and other people call the darkest people of my life and many other people call army, i wanted to prove myself. as a leader.

i really hate it when people march proudly in front of me or recount their stories in the army. i have none that i want to share.

maybe that's all the hiatus about this leadership positions thingy. after getting log head in bhbh2, and prog head in focc, probably i was too heady over this head thing. did having a leadership position really matter? well one thing is that it enables you to do whatever thing you want. it enables you to have a voice. is it really so.

i guess pharmers must have the man mentality? are we just willing to accept what they say? dare we speak out for ourselves, insisting that we are right, and we are not redundant as what we are claimed to be?

but yet, we are not united. and we have no voice, again, of our own, to speak of anything. we are silent, and dumb. we accept orders without questioning, we copy blindly when we work. we don't care at all. isn't this the man mentality? do it without asking why.

the private charges into the battlefield as directed by his officer. "hold this position!" he is ordered, even though it is a no win situation, the enemies outnumber him in all directions 50 to 1. even as the tanks prepare to crush him underfoot, he is still manning the GPMG bravely, shooting at the incoming tank, even to no avail. just because his officer told him to man this position as a diversion when the rest of the company are already at the enemy fort.

is this what we are? man mentality?

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